THe Seattle Rain.

Dc and I were talking on the phone today after I got off work, as usual and we started talking about the weather. He was asking me all sorts of questions. Then he said, " I think I would like living there".

hmmm.

Ok.

He called me at work to ask me something or other and when I got off the phone my coworker said, " was that the love of your life?" .

Hmmm.

Ok.

Huh.

This made me smile because I wanted to say...No.... the love of my life is not mine. and that has passed.

But, instead I said, "Im not sure, we will know after this weekend".

now, after that fortune cookie said what it said last nite about following my heart to success this week...well, im curious. I think he's pondering moving here. Seriously. Im not sure what is going to transpire but it was a simple conversation with an undercurrent.

I actually told DC about the comment that my coworker said via text... and he didnt respond so I followed up with, "they tease me whenever Im talking to a man on the phone, even a customer".

He texted back with, "its ok, I understand. No worries".

I am afraid I may have given him the wrong impression...whatever THAT is...but im fine with it really. Its just a wierd sitch. Hes a caretaker by nature and I like that. I am as well.  Its still hard for me to allow him to pay for things. We had this discussion this wekeend.  He bought my  bike for me b'c at the time I was trying to save up enough to purchase it and he offered, I argued, he sent a check anyway. I plan on taking him to dinner a few times and I have paid for our RIDE THE DUCK tour and a few other things... but im just not comfy with someone spoiling me like that. I guess during my marriage money was always on the forefront of my {non jewish thought he was Jewish } husband. It was a total tracking of who spent what doing what. It made me crazy!! and totally self conscious about someone spending money on me. It feels uncomfortable almost.

Someone told me its because I dont feel I deserve it. Maybe? Or, perhaps I dont think its someones responsbility to pay my way. Pride. However, DC has a way about him when he does things... Even when we were in NYC and he wanted to buy me something from Burberry and I was like FUCK NO! i walked out of the store before he could! I know how he works... he is taking me to vancouver on this great get away... manuevered it so Zen could come... and then he wont let me pay for anything im sure.... but it will be fun because its about 2.5 hours up and it will be fun to just be driving on a roadrip together with Zen.  I just miss the male companionship of being in a relationship. Being with a man for me is just easy that way.  I think we are going to have a ton of fun!

We are meeting my friends (couple) and her Sis and her bf for dinner at a place called Serafir or something like that....Tapas resturant! Then we may go back to their hotel for a card game and drinks... who knows.
Im going to AAA tomorrow at lunch to pick up a few maps of BC. and discount coupons if they have any. Im not sure what we are going to do because we have Zen and she cant be left in the hotel room...so we will probalby leave her in the car when need be....but lots of walking with umbrellas and the dog park...hopefully its not too wet...I dont know how the FAIRMONT will feel about a wet dogger meandering in and out of the place...this outta be intersting...im almost a bit nervous to be honest.  DC loves fancy hotels... i guess i could get used to THAT aspect...lol....

anyhow... I hope he likes it at my house. Hes been to the PNW twice before....a week each time. So he knows what hes in for.

Counting the days till Thursday...