Wasted Day

What a wasted day. Even the battery on my lap top is about to die. Seems the status quo today. I got up. swam.Paid my power bill. ate.slept for 4 hours. woke up. took Zen for a walk. and here I am. Somber.

I have to go drop off my rent downtown tonight because Im 2 days late. Ugh. really NOT in the mood to drive anyplace but... has to be done. 

I am meloncoly. I am sad. I feel a bit lost. Ive lost a few things that are important to me and Im dealing. Im pondering going back on the dating site. I need a little pick-me-up. Not feeling all that attractive or a 'catch'. LOL. thats funny I suppose. Who knows whats going on with DC. Everything is gray to me at this very moment. perhaps I will drive to the coast thursday and camp. Saturday is a party ive already RSVP'd to.

I think I will call Navy Diver. I really need to get laid and hes safe. yes, i think i will email him tonight. I need to drown my sorrows in the arms of a big strong man... no attachment needed!

Rag Doll. Yes... boy! is he gonna be the lucky recepiant of some built up frustration!

Yum!