Coach! I still got it.

yes, I swam today and YES! he talked to me!!! he started up a convo about how im getting faster and then asked if im still training for my triathlon...meaning he's listened to my convo's from the past with someone else at the pool...  he smild at me with the cutest smile EVER... I just melt around this guy.  We were talking about my triathlon coming up in Sept and he said he cant run anymore unfortunately...  I told him I tend to try and pace myself to him... which actually works for me... pushes me harder... we joked and I told him I walked 1/2 the run but he said good for me for even attempting and then for finishing!  I want to just grab him by his buttcheeks and kiss him! Hes so adorable!


anyhow, its amazing how things happen. Ive been so down as of late that  its a good thing for him to talk tome...I needed that :)

In other news, I just got off the phone with DC and he was telling me that hes seriously considering moving here..to the west coast to start fresh and that the only time hes been happy in the 6 months is when I was in DC visiting and when he was here visiting me... and that hes sick of living for his job and he wants a life...

He just has guilt about leaving his mom... and knows his sister is going to be an issue.  I dont want to persuade him. I need him to make this decision on his own. Its hard not to tel him to just MOVE here because we have so much fun together.... I have told him in the last few days that I misssed having him around... and he said he didnt sleep last night trying to figure out what the right thing is. All I could say to him was that if he feels the time is NOW to make a life change then he needs to listen to that voice and follow it.

I just dont want him to do things for the wrong reasons... it needs to be for the right ones. Im trying to hold back from persuading him... yet, let him know I would love if he did.  he's probably not going to come to Reno now b'c hes been taking alot of time off from work and the tix are really expensive... and thats ok...im sad of course... I told him to quit his job before that and just MOVE! heehee...and then said I was kidding but...kinda thought it was funny....

I dont know. Its hard because we havent had any physical ...anything... and that concerns me.... what if it was just a nightmare? the sex? i mean...what if we are TOTALLY not physically compatible? or hes impotent or some shit? what a horrible thing to say but...HULLO!!

Coming off an amazing love affair for 2 years where the sex and intimacy was amazing... that would be a hard pill to swollow...... hmmm.... 

anyhow....Coach.  I should seduce him.

I think now that the ice has broken...it might be time....shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............dont tell.